musing

last day at mellow today. it was fine while it lasted. i'm not upset to be done though. you'd think i'd feel a weird sort of finality about it, seeing as now i'm unemployed till i move to cincy... i don't though...

i have been super depressed this week. i'm talking phone off, in bed, on couch, grumpy, hateful, sad from monday afternoon till thursday night. i don't know why. my therapist thinks its cause i'm repressing all of these emotions about moving, and leaving the fam and all that. she asked me if i thought so, and i told her i have no idea. its repressed right?

all i know is that i can't wait to be where i don't know everyone everywhere. i know i'm gonna probably miss it once i'm gone. but right now, i can't stand it.


"hey laura! how are you? its been a long time!"
"...hey..."

*hug*

"what have you been up too? i miss you so much!!"
"eh, not too much, just working mostly"
"oh, are you in school?"
"nope, just workin, about to move to cincy"
"ohhhh, so you're going to school in cincy"
"actually no, i'm just gonna be working."

*look of judgement*

"really??? why aren't you in school?"
"its kinda a long story, but yeah, i'm excited to move, and start fresh"
"okay... well... make sure you go back okay?"
"okay. i will."
"alright well i'll talk to you later! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!"
"yeah... love you back..."

*hug*




yeah, that happens at least three times a day in Franklin, awesome.


i'm going to see my friend flutter this weekend, i'm really excited about that. and ranger jane came and saw me at work today which was wonderful.

and my jaybug is in town.



in other news, i'm considering deleting my facebook and blog....

we'll see.