sooo...

i'm really good at repressing stuff. i think that's the hardest part of healing for me, especially in the situation with tave. everytime i think i've let go, i've forgiven him for what he did and how he treated me, i remember something about the relationship that just makes me sick. and its hard to process, because i process through talking. but i feel like everyone is tired of hearing about him, and about how bad it was. i'm like a broken record, and the fact that it lasted so long is all my fault.