i haven't written anything meaningful lately.
nothing life changing.
nothing like a breakthrough.
i don't feel like i have moved forward at all. conversely, i don't feel that i'm regressing either. i just feel that i am moving back and forth horizontally. pacing my same path, discussing my same situation, reassuring my same sanity over and over and over again.
i hate this part.
i really wish that i could just move on. repress repress repress. move on. be happy again. sucks that it doesn't work that way.
And what part of this does not sound like a victory to you?
ReplyDeleteYou are not in denial. Victory.
You are working (able to work and getting some pleasure from it, not to mention money). Victory.
You are with people who care about you every day. Victory.
Your head comprehends more than your heart can process but you are getting there. Victory.
It is good to demand more of your self than you can currently deliver, but give your self a little grace with that.