It all boils down to a question of worthiness.
Am I worthy?
Am I valuable?
I don't think of myself as insecure, I don't constantly have little voices in my head telling me that I am a terrible person. But the way I treat myself speaks for itself.
No Laura, you aren't worthy. You aren't valuable. You don't deserve happiness. You brought this on yourself. All you know is how to please them, and that is all your good for. This weight gain? Its your fault. And you wont be able to lose it. Ever. You are fat. You are ugly.
The saddest part? This isn't a breakthrough, or a life-changing admission. I believe myself. That is the irony.
no, babygirl. you are so strong and beautiful and you'll be just fine. you just gotta get through.
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