so.

here's the thing about drinking.

i like to do it as much as the next person. as a way to relax, a way to think of something else.

after this most recent episode, i've come to realize that drinking no longer provides me the escape i long for. it only opens up my mind to release all that i've been hiding.

in recent times, i never was a crying drunk. those times have changed, and i don't like it.

so, abstaining again.