Waiting.

Even now- one year and a half after I ended things with him I still am waiting for an explosion. Anytime I say something that conflicts with Grasshopper, I still cringe on the inside waiting for him to explode on me. I am constantly afraid that I am going to say or do that one thing that makes him hate me, the thing about me that he can't stand. Its frightening that I still feel this way- it doesn't feel like it will go away soon. I guess if Ghop is worth my time he'll stick it through. My life is just one long wait.